Graffiti – Beirut vs Cairo

20 06 2012

After a refreshing and eyeopening 10 days in Beirut, I stumbled upon a simple but sometimes overlooked epiphany.

The people of both countries may belong to the same timezone, share common aspects of historical significance, have aggressive taxi drivers, jungle like traffic jams,  and suffer from the similar cultural disease of religious segregation, but the similarities stop there.

They definitely do not look the same, act the same, smell the same, and the list goes on and on…

I will not bore you with what is well known or universally acknowledged, but I will share with you the form of self expression both countries use oh-so often. The randomly beautiful works of art their youth imprint on the rough canvas that is the streets of Beirut & Cairo.

A taste of Beirut

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And a taste of Cairo…

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… no road blocks will stop them…

This one in Alexandria, Institute of Fine Arts…

Conclusion?

Think what you think, feel what you feel…

But to me, these masterpieces made me see the world through the artists eyes… I felt the culture and sophistication in the Lebanese, the positivism regardless of the  everyday wars they have to overcome…And I felt the perseverance and virgin rebellion that is the Egyptian youth of today…

Wanna check out more?

http://www.facebook.com/Graffiti.in.Egypt

http://photobeirut.typepad.com/photos/graffiti/index.html

 





November 19th: An Egyptian Abroad

27 11 2011

 

So I haven’t blogged in a while. (Out of topic, but isn’t strange that blogged as a verb is still non recognizable in wordpress and has to be underlined in red, making the blogger feel self-conscious and plain stupid?)

At first, it was because I was crazy busy (yes yes I am still the same me, always getting into random unpredicted situations), but then, it changed. Alot changed.

I was occupied with building my new life in Dubai, new job, new friends, new way of living… Getting used to the fact that streets are clean and secure, people are not loud and smell like feet… (See, Hard work!)

Then suddenly I was told that I have to go back to Cairo for atleast 4 working days!

I felt that my world is collapsing around me. Four working days, and it was Wednesday. What did that mean? Did that mean I had to be there for atleast a week and a half?! For some odd reason, that seemed too much for me to register… I felt faint. I really didn’t want to go back!

I started to think of how I will finally see my mother, who with only a few days notice, went from living with three wild children, to being alone, all alone…

I started to think about how happy my friends will be when I surprise them with arriving so unexpectedly, how it would be cool to meet my brother’s new girlfriend. And of course to gratify the materialistic lover of “things” in me, how satisfying it would be to bring back my beautiful belongings that did not fit into my bag last time.

Regardless, I still dreaded it. I cried a little inside.

I tried to make peace with it, my flight, after-all was a couple of hours away.

I got the gifts, packed my laundry, (might as well), boarded and closed my eyes.

The flight seemed to go by so fast, as if in a conspiracy to get me back to Egypt as fast as possible, just to test my patience.

As the Red Sea disappeared from the horizon, I started to reminisce.

I remembered how my friends and colleagues had branded me as the “last optimist”. The only one left who had hope in this country, the only one who only saw the good, and the bad always had an excuse. The one who was sure the good will prevail, the one who will not use her foreign passport, and only use the Egyptian one on principal. The one who fought against corruption in any way she can, with a Canadian passport and journalist status as protection.

I remembered those long days and nights we were at war. Those 18 days. The days that took away the last ounce of innocence left behind by the turmoil of my 31 years.

I remembered all that, and looked at myself at that moment (metaphorically ofcourse). And I continued my trip down memory lane. A quick edit of the following 6 months, those months that made me fall out of love with a country. My country. Those months that made me decide to leave. To look for a new home.

“The pilot would like to welcome you to Cairo, please stay in your seats until…”

And there I was. Back to the city I had left 3 months before.

I wondered if it would feel the same. I didn’t have to wonder for long. I went in. With my foreign passport.

Passport control, suspicious, background check, strange looks, then “welcome to Cairo”.

From the moment I collected my baggage, until I reached a cab, exactly 23 people asked me for money, to take my bags, or if I needed a limousine.

23 people.

I finally arrived at the “Taxi” parking.

They were like flies fighting over the last drop of honey in existence.

I was dazed. But then I said the only thing that could shut them up.

“Which one of you will give me a receipt?”

And then there was silence.

Nothing.

Everyone of them, as if on cue, looked away, and went back to their positions.

That was one of the most organized scenes I had ever seen in this country (outside of the 18 days ofcourse).

“Can someone tell me the closest place I can get an ordinary taxi, with a meter?”

Again, silence.

I decided to address one specific driver.

He gave me a dirty look, and told me that way, pointing into oblivion, “around 2 Km away” he said.

I so wanted to get back on the plane that just dropped me off.

I realized then it was a terrible idea to surprise EVERYONE. There has to atleast be one person who knows, who will pick you up at the airport. Next time, not too soon though.

Anyway, exactly 36 hours later, I was successfully extracted from Cairo and sent back to Dubai, where I am happy to call home, only to be bombarded with the news of Egypt on Saturday.

People so close to me detained, died and scarred for life. I realized then how hard it was for everyone NOT IN the square back in January. I realized how blinded we were by our adrenaline. By the basic instinct of survival.

But that was ages ago.

Felt like years and years.

A week of sleepless nights, international calls every half hour, watching every news broadcast, phone loosing battery due to excessive twitter usage…

A year-long week.

I started to get mad.

Get mad at all the people I met during the 6 months after January. All those people who said they want to make the country a  better place. Those brave people who fought with you side by side for freedom.

All those people who ended up being blinded by personal gains, how their name would look in print, and how many TV interviews they would “star” in.

All those people who sat in closed rooms, and constructed scores of documents, and speeches, claiming this would make it all better. This would make the trauma of seeing people die in your hands go away. These papers, tables and points will make sleeping on pavements in the street for days worthwhile.

But alas, they did not.

Nothing changed.

When the time to unite and build the Utopia they promised, they held on to “what they think is best”.

They held on to arrogant classifications, prejudice pointed fingers…

They held on to that just as the ones before held on to their seats…

The day I decided to leave was the day it hit me.

“This country is not ours. Not for the likes of me.”

I had to leave before I lost all the love I have for my home land.

I want a better life.

I am Human. Therefore I deserve it.

But enough of that now…

 

 

 

 





The real terrorism-Egyptian Women V.S. Egyptian Police Officers

19 04 2011
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The real terrorism

I started writing this post a week prior to the revolution, but didn’t post it, kind of got occupied with the struggle to topple the regime and all..

But I think now its time to post it….

So this is what happened in brief…

Going home in a taxi, a police car (box as we call them in Egypt) and 4 officers decide i have to tell them where i live!

The highest ranked one (23 years of age maximum) starts to raise an eyebrow and put on the “bad cop” attitude…

“so what’s your problem? Why don’t you want to tell us where you live?”

“Why?” I ask in a tone of confidence, not affected at all with the terrorizing attitude he is trying to extend to me

“Just because (Kida in Arabic)”

“Is there a problem? I know my rights, and I know you can’t stop me unless there are 2 present cases, there is a report looking for someone like me, or that i am breaking a certain rule..(ishtibaah aw ishara in Arabic)

“No, that’s wrong… You do as i say… This is my area, no one comes and goes unless we ask them who they are”

Me: “Well, you didn’t ask me who i am, you asked me where I live! and Strangely enough, I have lived in this area for 12 years and no one ever stopped me”

“What’s your problem? just tell me where you live!”

“No, I know my rights, you are not authorized to even stop me”

“I know where you live anyway, and where you are coming from…” in a new attempt at provoking me

“why do you ask me then if you already know” ever so calmly i replied

“You are coming from (wrong place) and live in (wrong place)”

“Wrong. Can I leave now?”

Getting really mad he said “You are not allowed to leave until you show me some ID”

“Show me yours first” ever so quickly i replied…

The shocked look on his face was so amusing and only topped by the amused looks on the other officers of lower rank surrounding him.

He eventually took out his police ID, holding it tightly in his hand, showing me the back side of it, I reached out to see it he aggressively stated, “Its against the law for a civilian to touch my ID”

I responded “Well, its illegal for you to stop me now with no cause, so I suggest we head off to the police station so each one can get their lawful rights!”

He stood there puzzled and angry, went on ranting about how he didn’t want to go to the police station, as he has no problems with me as long as I tell him where I live!

I decided that this was taking too long, so I just said politely and innocently

“Listen, this conversation is of no use anyway, I do not have the national ID anyway”

A crooked smile drew on his face… “it gets better and better”

I stated back “I have my Canadian passport with me, would that work?”

I hated that I had to use that card, but it was starting to get messy. I mean, this is supposed to be a national force to protect Egyptian civilians, not to give a green card for foreign passport holders to do as they please!

He ofcourse, had to let me go, relentlessly, and could not really leave me without a final comment…

“I will allow you to go, for now, but I know how to get back at you.”

That was it. He woke up the raging pmsing no bullshit female in me.

I told the taxi driver to start the car and leave, only to find the officer in his car following us!

I quickly and have to admit, seemingly irrationally, told the driver to halt, and propped myself out of the car window, took a picture of the officer, and the plates of the car. I then asked the driver to head to the nearest police station.

I was an angry woman on a mission.

I started remembering on the short ride to the police station the 3 other similar incidents I had gone through in my years living in Egypt. But those are different stories on their own.

I want you to get the exact visual of the following, so I will bore you with a couple of seemingly irrelevant details:

Me, with my short dress, big blonde hair, made up face (I just came back from a shoot for my show), loud heels, a designer small bag hanging from my arm, and with a severely angry expression on my childlike face, walking into the police station around 1:30 am full of dirty, horny looking men who call themselves,” servants of the law”.

Needless to say, many of those so called “servants” ran to me. Born and raised in a chauvinistic society, they either instantaneously assume I am ill reputed, or in need of rescue. They did not know they had a long night ahead of them!

I was escorted into a small ground floor office of apparently the young officer responsible for the night shift.

“Whats your problem?” he said as he looked me up and down in disrespect.

“I am Canadian, and I have a problem with one of your colleagues”

His attitude changed then and there, and escorted me himself to the upstairs office of the highest ranking officer at the station, who was in bed sleeping at that time.

I was met with a lower ranking officer, but older man, who was very helpful, and was actually impressed that I gave him the plate number of the police car.

The night went on, and each time I tell my story to someone, they realize it is over their heads, and wake up a higher ranking officer to come and “fix it”.

A couple of younger officers were there, and realized instantly that I knew what I was doing, knew my rights well, and was not leaving until I get the name of the officer who stopped me. They realized I knew that I could not file a complaint against him in his own jurisdiction, not because it was illegal, but because no one will be involved in that, and apparently his father was “someone important”.

I was left alone in the glass doored office for a bit in the middle, and heard faint shouts from outside. I took a peak only to find that the officer in question holding the taxi driver, MY taxi driver by the neck and screaming “tell the basha she is lying, tell him she is making all this up”.

This is getting more interesting by the minute, I thought to myself. I walked out of the office calmly with my little dress and big hair, and asked quietly, “What are you doing with this man? He is with me”

The officer’s superior looked at me with disguised innocence, and said “we are just interrogating the driver, like we did with you.” As if that made sense.

“First of all, you did not interrogate me, I came to file a complaint, and second, if you want to interrogate him, you do so in the office infront of me, as I assume you will as well with this officer I am complaining about.”

A moment of silence.

Followed by orders to leave the driver and escort him in the office with me.

So here we were, Me, the Driver, the bad cop (who’s name turned out to be Mazen), the highest ranking officers of the police station and a couple of spectators.

Mazen started with the intimidating scenario of bad cop, keeping strong eye contact with me, lighting his cigarette and blowing in my direction in intimidation, the works!

And me, I kept getting phone calls from my friends who found out I was there from my tweets, and kept receiving threats from my behalf to stay away from the station, since I did not need anyone to come rescue me.

When the high ranking officer asked me “why don’t you call anyone to be with you now?”

I had to respond “why would I need anyone with me here? Isn’t this supposed to be the safest place in the area? Or should I be worried about something?”

With his not so well trained poker face he responded “ofcourse not.”

He proceeded to ask me AGAIN what happened infront of the officer, and to my surprise, he actually made the arrogant Mazen admit he did not follow authorized procedures, as Mazen proceeded in being disrespectful to him as well as what I was saying. Apparently his daddy was a REALLY important person.

All the officers there at this stage were trying to calm me down, and to “fix it”. But I was keen on proving my point. You will not get away with using your powers to terrorize civilians, nor to have a little bit of fun with pretty girls going home late.

I told them at the end, all I need is Mazen’s full name and information, and I was transparent with my reasons, which simply were that I will be filing an official report in a delegated division of the Ministry of Interior Affairs handling officer conduct and citizen complaints.

On the phone with me was one of my close friends, cultural and political Guru, Dr. Nabil Farouk,  who was as usual, helping me out and guiding me in my citizen fighting for justice efforts!

When they made it clear they will not give me Mazen’s full name, I stated that I have their full names, since I took note of them when they introduced themselves to me, and will have to use this information to get him. I left them with their shocked facial expressions at 4am to walk out of the station, with my little dress, big hair and the taxi driver.

I had a good 2 hours sleep before a phone call from an “unknown number” woke me up.

“Good morning Ms. Noha, was getting worried about you, haven’t seen complaints from you for quite a while” said the calm deep voice at the other end of the call.

“Well, your boys have been awfully law abiding for a while, but apparently they cannot work under pressure.” I answered in a sleepy voice, referring to the All Saints Cathedral bombing in Alexandria that had tragically occured recently.

“Ok then, let us deal with the problem at hand, first of all, I would like to apologize to you on behalf of head of security of Cairo district, we have zero tolerance with officer misconduct with civilians in general, and that has been reinforced recently. Second, I would like to ask you to visit us today after we are done with processing the complaint to give us your written testimonial and sign it, that is if you like, if you don’t want to, that will not stop the procedures of investigating into the complaint.”

“Oh come on dear sir, you know I have no problems at all, on the contrary, it is my pleasure to help out”  I said with a sarcastic humorous tone.

“Ok then, please expect a call from me during the day” he said laughing.

I will not bore you with details of my day, except that I had 2 historical encounters, one with Blake Morrison, investigative reporter from Washington Post, and with Najla, a long time online stalker turned friend. Both epic, but each deserves a blog post on their own.

I got the call later the day as Mr. X on the phone promised, and I headed towards the main building of the ministry.

Again, my day had started as a television anchor, so I went to this meeting in a little blue dress this time with semi big hair.

I walked in to the institute which is deemed sacred by a huge population of police personnel country wide with my little blue dress, semi big hair, and loud heels.

I was escorted regally into a grand office, with a built man sitting behind an old fashioned, but apparently expensive desk. He did not seem like an old man, and when I took a look at his introductory brass plate for his name and position, all it said was his name and “police officer”. Really? I was sure he was not just a police officer, but who knew how this institute worked!

I sat on the couch, put my bag down and said hello.

He instantaneously responded “Well hello young lady, no wonder our boys cannot help themselves around you, you are stunning.”

I very much right away responded “Well sir, I believe there is no law against being pretty is there?”

He laughed as I tried to stop myself from commenting against his extremely biased statement.

I again, and for the 59th time probably, recited my incident the night before, and asked him “so am I blowing things out of proportion like one of the high ranked officers told me last night?”

“Actually, no, I would like to thank you for being a responsible citizen, and for knowing your rights and fighting for them, and actually helping us do a better job”

I smiled, and nodded, secretly wondering if this attitude is due to my foreign passport holding status. No need to wonder? Well, benefit of the doubt is a must at all times, I suppose.

We then embarked on the process of writing the complaint. I told him I couldn’t really write well in Arabic, so he offered to write for me as I dictated him. I stressed on the fact that Mazen’s superior officer admitted that he did wrong, and that in his presence, Mazen admitted to all I accused him of.

Mr. X looked at me in admiration, as if saying, how can a cute little girl like you be so sinister?

I read the complaint, signed it, and asked if I could get a copy of it.

He agreed, only a little unwillingly, and got one of the lower ranking officers to make a copy of it with his fancy high tech machine inside the office, right beside his personal bathroom.

He told me he will be updating me with the procedures of the  interrogation and I stated that I will surely be waiting.

During the next couple of days, I received calls from the Taxi driver informing me that Mazen was calling him on a daily basis, trying to be all friendly, and asking for my address, and the driver’s address, but “Boody” the driver, refrained from giving him both.

Then the revolution happened. At moments, I could swear the police officers that were responsible for terrorizing us in the square and on our way to the square were the subjects of my history of fighting for female rights against the terrorism of police officers to women, but I could never be sure.

My hatred for this police force have grown since then a million times, and tried to raise my voice to the world when they asked if the police brutality is something that emerged during our revolution, with my clear message of “police corruption has been always in our streets, with officers given the right to do as they please, and given the feeling they are above the law, not servants of the law”.

“When dealing with them, you instantly get the vibe they have been educated and raised to believe they are Gods, and they are above all laws and regulations, that they own the streets and everyone on them. Such a huge difference between the vibe you get when you chat with an army officer. One of the army officers we chatted with during the revolution, specifically infront of the People’s assembly building downtown, a couple of days prior to February 11th – It is not our job to act as traffic patrol in the morning, protect you guys in the afternoon, search for corrupt police in the early evening, and put them on trial in the late evening. Our place is on the borders, protecting our civilians, fighting battles if needed-. I believe the difference in mentality is quite obvious.”

I have to say though, in defense of my personal ideologies and principals, we cannot ever generalize any characteristic. That will be prejudice at its core. But I am just speaking of my experiences, which can all be summarized in the story above.





When the going gets tough, I reminisce

28 03 2011

 

When I walk along the crowded Cairo streets, and receive indecent comments, I reminisce.

When people supposedly on “our team” back stab you, and try to pull you down, I reminisce.

When my family sends me messages saying “we forgot how you look like”, I reminisce.

When I am unappreciated and criticized, I reminisce.

I reminisce about the days I spend in Utopia. And when I snap out of my daydream, I find my self recharged.

And this is what I reminisce about….

I wake up to the beautiful chants of the “moral support committee”….

“Salute the brave who protected the square”

Of course in Arabic, it sounds many times more poetic.  I push away the covers from my face, and my eyes squint from the harsh sun. I try to rearrange the mess that is now my hair, and start pulling off myself the numerous blankets and coats placed over me to help overcome the cold of the night. I look around me for my sense of security, my Tahrir family. The young boy Badr who ran away from home to be part of the revolution lays still asleep to my right and on the left the woman with a child’s face that has become known as “the commander”. Now I feel safe and secure.

I look around me. The daily routine starts. The first awake looks for the tea and biscuits for breakfast, and even before I get up, I find a young man handing me the “continental Tahrir breakfast”. The cup of tea and the date biscuit. I smile at him and nod my head. He nods back. I smile remembering the earlier days of the revolution when we could not find a sip of water. When the government would not let in medicine, and the hired thugs stole the food and drink from those entering the square. I smile and add this cup of tea to my list of successes. We have done a lot.

The group starts to wake up one by one, with the exception of course to those who had night duty and just fell asleep after sun break.

I give the rest of my tea to the next person awake, and head off to the mosque to wash my face and go to the bathroom. I reach there, to find a long queue of people waiting patiently and quietly for their turn.

By the time I get closer to the toilets, I smile again, to find that the showers in the mosque are in maintenance by volunteers, and not only that, but they are installing new shower heads. I get into the bathroom after a long wait, to find it clean and smelling of disinfectant. As I “do my business”, I smile again at how civilized thousands of people from different backgrounds can be.

It is now time to clean. To clean the square that is, from the remains of last night’s visitors. I join the cleaning committee, I take the big black garbage bag, and gloves and start my task. I smile again remembering the first days when we picked up the garbage with our bare hands, or using newspapers as mittens, since we did not have access to so many “luxurious” resources.

I suddenly hear a voice “excuse me miss…”

I look up from my kneeling position of picking up the garbage, “yes?” I smile

He did not speak; he just takes off his neck scarf to give it to me.

My smile now is just for him. I take the scarf and put it around my neck to cover my cleavage, and he nods at me and walks away.

I continue the first task of the day.

One of the women from the security committee waves at me from far away, signaling it is my turn to join the front lines at the entrances.

I put on the security badge, and take my spot at kasr el Nile bridge entrance. I wave a salute at the army soldiers on top of their tank and start my second task of the day.

The women enter, we check their ID’s, we search their bags, and we pat their bodies in search for weapons.

The faces are different, we welcome each one, and we apologize for the inconvenience. Thousands of women per hour pass through, all Egyptian, all beautiful in their own way. The foreign reporters are escorted in and welcomed by individual volunteers who speak their language to help them around the square, and give them a tour if they are new comers.

Bags of food, sox, underwear, blankets, cigarettes, pamphlets, booklets of the constitution, art supplies for signs, medical supplies, Egyptian flags all enter as we smile and apologize for the inconvenience.

We start hearing the banging on the metal, signaling intruders. All the men run towards the sound to create the famous human barricade. They stand arm in arm, staring into the eyes of the thugs and looters trying to enter. The “bad guys” throw rocks, shout insults and threats, and our men stand their ground, united in an intimidating silence. Until the thugs trickle away.

The day goes on. And we smile.

It is now time for the rallying. Back to the base, under the infamous “Leave” sign.

The overnight warriors are now all awake, and the others have now arrived at the headquarters.

A group takes the signs, and start chanting our now well known verses, calling for our demands, for our freedom and slowly promenade around the garden mid square. We are joined by many, from all walks of life, and we join others and the “demonstrations” begin.

Another group is “mingling” with the other groups, taking contacts; setting meeting times late at night after the “visitors” have left, to create a network from all forces in the battle ground.

Another group is talking with reporters, doing interviews, sharing with the world our demands and our legitimate needs. We tell them what we need to be done for us to leave Tahrir, and secretly dreading the day we have to leave our new home. The day we say good bye to our revolution families.

Internet is slow on smart phones, if present, so we have to wait for those responsible for updates to come in and fill us in on what the world has to say today.

We sit in groups of diverse group representatives, and try to make sense of what is happening outside our Tahrir.

We find many public figures demonstrating, many professionals from different sectors; we ask them to sit with us, to lecture us on the constitution, on the economic status, on the legalities of our demands. We spread the word. We keep smiling.

By sun down, we hear news of friends who are missing. We go to our allies on the other side from human rights movements. We ask about them, we find they are missing as well. We look up to see the “government” helicopter circling our territory. It gives us some sort of comfort. It means we are feared. We are being watched.

We walk back to the base, noticing the man following us. We smile. We know by now the tactics of our enemies. They start to take videos of us at our base. We are now used to them standing closer to hear our conversations. We are now very much familiar with the unknown numbers calling us with strange threats and questions.

It is now night time. We start to hear rumors of groups of vicious thugs moving through the city heading towards us. We smile, because the government now has become quite predictable. It is time for the mind games. Spies in the morning, rumors at early evening and hired thugs at night. We smile because we remember the first days of the revolution when it was, police and thugs in the morning, police and thugs at early evening, and finally, police and thugs at night until the break of dawn.

I hear music from back at the base. I go back and sit down. A young man from a nearby governorate is playing sweet oriental tunes on his lute, and our young friend on the other side playing a Spanish guitar.  Girls with long flowing hair sit cross legged, our young friends, who were called “homeless street children” outside of Tahrir are sitting on our laps. A sheikh with a long beard is singing with a beautiful voice tunes of freedom and songs of courage. The sky is clear with stars as we look up, we smile. For the first time ever we can see clear skies in the Cairo night. We see it as a sign of hope, although it could logically be the effect of the decreasing number of cars and public transportation in the streets because of the curfew. But we still see it as a sign of hope, because since the 25th of January, Egypt is truly ours.

Some kind people hand out food to us. We welcome the offerings with grateful eyes, they smile at us. We smile back. We share the food and we sing. In the background of our songs we hear gun shots, and we adjust our tunes to accommodate the familiar sounds.

Our songs are interrupted by nearby shouts, indicating the emergence of a fight inside the square. We run almost hypnotically, carrying our “Peaceful” signs. The brave females with long hair stand in between the 2 who are fighting shouting “Peaceful”. The security committee come over and separate. Both men participating in their disputes are firmly asked to present their identification. One of them turns out to be a low ranking police officer in civil clothing. He tries to run. He is caught, and taken on a tour around the square so people can see his face, it is the walk of shame, and then he is placed in the prison we have created. He then is handed over to the army. Peaceful it will stay.

We go back to our base. Emotions building up all day start to emerge. Some may have tears of frustration in their eyes. They are comforted instantaneously with a word of support, a pat on the back, or a joke.

It is time to sleep. We cover ourselves with all the blankets we can get, and stare up at the stars. Girls sleep in the middle and the men surrounding them. Some sleep and others take turns to watch over those resting. In the middle of the night we wake up to one of ours frightful scream. It was a nightmare. He shares the dream. We comfort eachother. We smile. And we sleep again.

 





لك يا وطن

26 03 2011

 

 

وإنتهت ثورة الميدان…  انتهت جمعات الغضب ومليونيات الثلاثاء ومعارك الجمال والطوب والرصاص والنوم على أرصفة الحرية. لم نعد نصحو على تمارين الصباح و إنذارات الخطر.

لم نعد نبحث عن رفقائنا بين أشلاء الشهداء…

حقاً انتهت ثورة الميدان، ولكن بدأت ثورة العقل، والدين والسياسة… بدأت التحالفات، والخطط والاحزاب.. بدأت الإجتماعات والإتحادات والمساومات…

يقولون مازلنا في ثورة… يقولون لم تنتهي بعد…

ولكن..

لماذا لا أشعر شعور الثورة؟ إن لم تنتهي بعد، لماذا أشعر بالوحدة.. لماذا لا أشعر بالوحدة؟

أشعر انني وحدي بين البشر، ولا أشعر بوحدة أهل الوطن.

لماذا أشعر اننا انحرفنا عن مسارنا ونسينا ثورتنا؟

هذه ليست سلبية ولا فقدان أمل، لا تفهموني خطأ … فهناك الملايين يعملون على تطوير الوطن كل يوم وكل لحظة.. ولكن…

كل خطوة نبتعدها عن الميدان، وكل يوم يزيد في رصيد حريتنا ، نبتعد عن … أسفتاً أقول، ادميتنا..

نعود إلى أيام ما قابل الثورة… زمن الفردية، وعدم الثقة، والكذب والمصلحة الشخصية.. أخاف يوماً ننسى الهدف الأسمى… الحرية، العدالة الإجتماعية، الوطن…

ثورنا من أجلك يا وطن…

اعتذر إن نسيت لحظة هذا الهدف…

اعتذر لك يا وطن… الندم يقتلني على كل لحظة نسيت فيها هذا الهدف… لم أبكي لشهدائك يا وطن، ولكن أبكي على الأحياء الأموات… ابطال الثورة البائدين، كانوا ابطال في الميدان، والآن، ابطال البرامج الحوارية والإجتماعات الحكومية..

ادعو في صلاتي لهم.. ولي.. ولشهدائنا…

أبكي لك يا وطن.. إغفر لنا يا وطن.. ما باقٍ إلا أنت يا وطن..

يا مصر، يا ليبيا، يا تونس، يا يمن يا سوريا ….

أبكي لكم يا عرب…

 

 





When the going gets tough, I reminisce

18 03 2011

When I walk along the crowded Cairo streets, and receive indecent comments, I reminisce.

When people supposedly on “our team” back stab you, and try to pull you down, I reminisce.

When my family sends me messages saying “we forgot how you look like”, I reminisce.

When I am unappreciated and criticized, I reminisce.

I reminisce about the days I spend in Utopia. And when I snap out of my daydream, I find my self recharged.

And this is what I reminisce about….

I wake up to the beautiful chants of the “moral support committee”….

“Salute the brave who protected the square”

Of course in Arabic, it sounds many times more poetic.  I push away the covers from my face, and my eyes squint from the harsh sun. I try to rearrange the mess that is now my hair, and start pulling off myself the numerous blankets and coats placed over me to help overcome the cold of the night. I look around me for my sense of security, my Tahrir family. The young boy Badr who ran away from home to be part of the revolution lays still asleep to my right and on the left the woman with a child’s face that has become known as “the commander”. Now I feel safe and secure.

I look around me. The daily routine starts. The first awake looks for the tea and biscuits for breakfast, and even before I get up, I find a young man handing me the “continental Tahrir breakfast”. The cup of tea and the date biscuit. I smile at him and nod my head. He nods back. I smile remembering the earlier days of the revolution when we could not find a sip of water. When the government would not let in medicine, and the hired thugs stole the food and drink from those entering the square. I smile and add this cup of tea to my list of successes. We have done a lot.

The group starts to wake up one by one, with the exception of course to those who had night duty and just fell asleep after sun break.

I give the rest of my tea to the next person awake, and head off to the mosque to wash my face and go to the bathroom. I reach there, to find a long queue of people waiting patiently and quietly for their turn.

By the time I get closer to the toilets, I smile again, to find that the showers in the mosque are in maintenance by volunteers, and not only that, but they are installing new shower heads. I get into the bathroom after a long wait, to find it clean and smelling of disinfectant. As I “do my business”, I smile again at how civilized thousands of people from different backgrounds can be.

It is now time to clean. To clean the square that is, from the remains of last night’s visitors. I join the cleaning committee, I take the big black garbage bag, and gloves and start my task. I smile again remembering the first days when we picked up the garbage with our bare hands, or using newspapers as mittens, since we did not have access to so many “luxurious” resources.

I suddenly hear a voice “excuse me miss…”

I look up from my kneeling position of picking up the garbage, “yes?” I smile

He did not speak; he just takes off his neck scarf to give it to me.

My smile now is just for him. I take the scarf and put it around my neck to cover my cleavage, and he nods at me and walks away.

I continue the first task of the day.

One of the women from the security committee waves at me from far away, signaling it is my turn to join the front lines at the entrances.

I put on the security badge, and take my spot at kasr el Nile bridge entrance. I wave a salute at the army soldiers on top of their tank and start my second task of the day.

The women enter, we check their ID’s, we search their bags, and we pat their bodies in search for weapons.

The faces are different, we welcome each one, and we apologize for the inconvenience. Thousands of women per hour pass through, all Egyptian, all beautiful in their own way. The foreign reporters are escorted in and welcomed by individual volunteers who speak their language to help them around the square, and give them a tour if they are new comers.

Bags of food, sox, underwear, blankets, cigarettes, pamphlets, booklets of the constitution, art supplies for signs, medical supplies, Egyptian flags all enter as we smile and apologize for the inconvenience.

We start hearing the banging on the metal, signaling intruders. All the men run towards the sound to create the famous human barricade. They stand arm in arm, staring into the eyes of the thugs and looters trying to enter. The “bad guys” throw rocks, shout insults and threats, and our men stand their ground, united in an intimidating silence. Until the thugs trickle away.

The day goes on. And we smile.

It is now time for the rallying. Back to the base, under the infamous “Leave” sign.

The overnight warriors are now all awake, and the others have now arrived at the headquarters.

A group takes the signs, and start chanting our now well known verses, calling for our demands, for our freedom and slowly promenade around the garden mid square. We are joined by many, from all walks of life, and we join others and the “demonstrations” begin.

Another group is “mingling” with the other groups, taking contacts; setting meeting times late at night after the “visitors” have left, to create a network from all forces in the battle ground.

Another group is talking with reporters, doing interviews, sharing with the world our demands and our legitimate needs. We tell them what we need to be done for us to leave Tahrir, and secretly dreading the day we have to leave our new home. The day we say good bye to our revolution families.

Internet is slow on smart phones, if present, so we have to wait for those responsible for updates to come in and fill us in on what the world has to say today.

We sit in groups of diverse group representatives, and try to make sense of what is happening outside our Tahrir.

We find many public figures demonstrating, many professionals from different sectors; we ask them to sit with us, to lecture us on the constitution, on the economic status, on the legalities of our demands. We spread the word. We keep smiling.

By sun down, we hear news of friends who are missing. We go to our allies on the other side from human rights movements. We ask about them, we find they are missing as well. We look up to see the “government” helicopter circling our territory. It gives us some sort of comfort. It means we are feared. We are being watched.

We walk back to the base, noticing the man following us. We smile. We know by now the tactics of our enemies. They start to take videos of us at our base. We are now used to them standing closer to hear our conversations. We are now very much familiar with the unknown numbers calling us with strange threats and questions.

It is now night time. We start to hear rumors of groups of vicious thugs moving through the city heading towards us. We smile, because the government now has become quite predictable. It is time for the mind games. Spies in the morning, rumors at early evening and hired thugs at night. We smile because we remember the first days of the revolution when it was, police and thugs in the morning, police and thugs at early evening, and finally, police and thugs at night until the break of dawn.

I hear music from back at the base. I go back and sit down. A young man from a nearby governorate is playing sweet oriental tunes on his lute, and our young friend on the other side playing a Spanish guitar.  Girls with long flowing hair sit cross legged, our young friends, who were called “homeless street children” outside of Tahrir are sitting on our laps. A sheikh with a long beard is singing with a beautiful voice tunes of freedom and songs of courage. The sky is clear with stars as we look up, we smile. For the first time ever we can see clear skies in the Cairo night. We see it as a sign of hope, although it could logically be the effect of the decreasing number of cars and public transportation in the streets because of the curfew. But we still see it as a sign of hope, because since the 25th of January, Egypt is truly ours.

Some kind people hand out food to us. We welcome the offerings with grateful eyes, they smile at us. We smile back. We share the food and we sing. In the background of our songs we hear gun shots, and we adjust our tunes to accommodate the familiar sounds.

Our songs are interrupted by nearby shouts, indicating the emergence of a fight inside the square. We run almost hypnotically, carrying our “Peaceful” signs. The brave females with long hair stand in between the 2 who are fighting shouting “Peaceful”. The security committee come over and separate. Both men participating in their disputes are firmly asked to present their identification. One of them turns out to be a low ranking police officer in civil clothing. He tries to run. He is caught, and taken on a tour around the square so people can see his face, it is the walk of shame, and then he is placed in the prison we have created. He then is handed over to the army. Peaceful it will stay.

We go back to our base. Emotions building up all day start to emerge. Some may have tears of frustration in their eyes. They are comforted instantaneously with a word of support, a pat on the back, or a joke.

It is time to sleep. We cover ourselves with all the blankets we can get, and stare up at the stars. Girls sleep in the middle and the men surrounding them. Some sleep and others take turns to watch over those resting. In the middle of the night we wake up to one of ours frightful scream. It was a nightmare. He shares the dream. We comfort eachother. We smile. And we sleep again.





Sool Atfih continued…

16 03 2011

We marched through the streets as the village residents eyed us with doubt. We greeted each family as we passed them. The streets grew narrower as the crowds grew in number, and the glances of doubt turning into clear distrust and suspicion. Men in suits whispered to us “don’t be afraid, we will protect you, we are secret service”. We responded “yes we can tell you are, and we don’t need your protection, we are amongst brothers and sisters, you stay out of it”.

And it got kind of hazy since that point… Some of us managed to enter deeper into the crowds, and the females found themselves pulled one by one by out of the crowd by our male colleagues.

Apparently they thought it was not safe.

By the time we all gathered back at the cars, it was late at night, and we embarked back to Cairo.

What happened inside can be summarized in efforts at entering the Church to speak to the “leaders” of the demonstrators, and they did not seem to relent at their demands. They did not want the Church to be rebuilt in the same place. They respect their Christian friends freedom of religion, but what they discovered in the Church could not be allowed to continue in their village.

Reflecting on that, we all decided we must pay a long visit to the demonstrators in front of Maspiro the TV building.

But that is a different story on its own…

I will have to leave now, because we are holding a lecture in the beautiful Alexandria (Business Men Society) regarding the upcoming referendum.

Cheers!

 





Sool… Atfi7… Inside the homes of the Christian Families

11 03 2011

We took the road early to head to the small village of Sool that has become a pivotal location of post revolution Egypt.

Eight cars packed with figures that have become the most influential in the Egyptian Era of change, ranging from the youth of the coalition, to representatives of different political parties to independent thinkers.

It was a long way from Helwan, and as we drove further away from the Urban Cairo, we drove closer to the middle of nowhere.

We were guided by youth from the village, and took many right and left and indirect turns… until we arrived at Atfih. We were told then that Sool, the village was actually 20 minutes away from Atfih… And the residents made sure that we knew that Sool is not the same as Atfih, with a population of atleast 30,000 people.

We arrived with a grand welcome at the town “guest hall”…. The resident representatives sat us down and gave us a welcome speech, and introduced themselves. They were Micheals and Mohameds, Christians and Muslims, standing together in apparent harmony.

The women asked to go to the bathroom, and we were escorted up to one of the homes atop of the hall. We were welcomed by 7 women from all ages, and sat down to talk with them.

They were a Christian family and they started to tell us the inside story of what really happened.

“The Muslim girl’s father worked with the Christian young man. The father was warned of the recurrent visits of the young man to his home, and since he had a young daughter, it was against village culture. The day they were caught together in an isolated area in the fields, both the boy and the girl ran from the capturers. Quickly and like forest fire the news spread in the village of the disgraceful incident and the men of her family headed out to bring justice and wash away the scandal. The father was ordered to kill his daughter to relieve the shame, but he refused to end her life. Her cousins and uncle decided it was a necessity. The other youth of the village started a head hunt for the Christian boy and were told he was hiding in the Church which lies in the middle of the tiny unpaved side streets of the village.

The showdown was infront of the Church, where the family of the Muslim girl engaged in a heated conversation of what must be done. The girl’s cousin killed her father in shame, and the girl’s brother took justice into his own hands and killed the cousin. Unfortunately for the village, it turns out that the young man that was shot by the hands of the girl’s cousin, was one of the most respected and adored youth of the village.

Chaos stirred infront of the Church… the men organized themselves in anger and grief to find the young Christian man and to find the girl’s brother. Again, they were told that they were hiding in the Church.

The young men of the village entered the closed Church and searched high and low. Then the worst happened.

The result of this search can be summarized in a flyer they wrote and distributed to the whole village and the villages nearby.

The paper disclosed how they found alcohol, Muslim girls pictures and names, pieces of their hair and clothing. This indicated nothing but the efforts to do magic and bring chaos to the Muslims of the village.

At this point, the whole population erupted in anger. Where are those crooked priests? Where are the Christians who did this to them?”

We asked the women if the Muslims harmed them or not. They responded they were so scared of being harmed, some fled and some hid at their Muslim friends’ homes. At that time the Church was being torn down. It was torn down in anger of the unethical and unreligious practices the men have “uncovered” in the holy building, and in grief of the young man that was killed due to the sins of their Christian son.

We left the town hall to move to the grand governor’s mansion  for the “press conference”, where the Shiekh Mohamed Hassan was to speak to the youth and try to convince them to leave the church, and let it be built in the same place, and to bring peace and unity back to the city, and to whole of Egypt.

A main table was set up in the porch of the mansion, and the garden was packed. People were everywhere, even on tree tops to be able to see and hear what was to be said. A major army general was there as well, the thinkers and well known public figures joined.

Me another women and a man were escorted up to first floor of the mansion to be able get a safe and secluded view of the happenings. We decided to sit and have a civilized conversation with the educated few who were with us in the “VIP” area. One doctor, one engineer and a local man in ethnic clothes made us tea and sat with us. They started telling us the story again from A to Z. The young man with us was a Christian Orthodox, and he explained that the wine they found in the Church was used in religious practices. The locals faces were actually surprised to hear that, and received the information with understanding. We justified the information by telling them “Christians in Egypt do not get divorces, does this mean we have to force them to be like us? To all his own religious practice. It is like going to India and deciding to slaughter a cow in the middle of a sacred street.” They were convinced. We were told later by the Muslim women that we visited in their homes as we went to the Church that they used to go to the Priests to perform magic for their girls to get married and get pregnant. They took with them pictures of the girls, their full names with the names of their mothers and a piece of their clothing. We asked them if the men knew that!!! They stated that they did… we asked them then why are they using this excuse to keep the hold on the Church! They said we don’t know.

The army told us don’t go. They said we cannot secure your safety. We went anyway. We had to talk to the youth. What happened there was just another story.

A story I will have to continue later because we are now on our way to TV building to speak with the Christian demonstrators there about their legitimate demands…

 

 





2011- The Egyptian Youth Revolution

7 02 2011

I will dedicate this page to collect ALL videos and photographs and links related to our revolution.

Signing out from my new home: Midan El Tahrir (independence square)

PICTURES

http://totallycoolpix.com/2011/01/the-egypt-protests/

http://totallycoolpix.com/2011/01/the-egypt-protests-part-2/

VIDEOS

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9PDTYEBs7_A&NR=1

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QAZ0U6ni5uo

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=108005609275105&comments

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h5GSfSRY2PQ&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X2IJt62pg3A&feature=related

Freedom Fighters

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ym-7-kMdnAs&feature=related

The Egyptian Revolution

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lq8o6-Jmy1s&feature=related

The Fighting Song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wwZXDLw-Ntw&feature=related

Egyptian Revolution 2011

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=suBHa5OoNyI&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wv9kDyaOylI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D8tQhQLsrPo&feature=related

Government scandals

http://www.dostor.org/society-and-people/variety/11/february/7/35983

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zR7a8R1xNPA

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-HGfFyqJMrk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1PAhKKd5nEU

Hamza Namira song and videos from Revolution

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zHZbZm69PCE

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=10150136395910757&oid=139190676108836&comments

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9EhIoWHdAoQ

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v7hKhNlviZo

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gPhj5XnPjaU

http://www.youtube.com/verify_age?next_url=http://www.youtube.com/watch%3Fv%3D0WNTE_uqHqw

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HNmsB5JXXnY&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GM5HEszmRf8&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3xWiBCIxjIk&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v7hKhNlviZo

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JFJqElJzVsU&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O1c1eVxRVq4&feature=related

Egypt’s women protesters

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VD2Kt-w_69M&feature=channel

Coptic Mass in Tahrir

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HoqwlmGww9Y&feature=player_detailpage

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QH8T70HlkKU&sns=fb

Tameem El Bargouthy’s dedication

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QH8T70HlkKU&sns=fb

Our martyrs

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=10150146576296113&comments

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SfJD86yYfC0

 

Mohamed Mounir’s dedication

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZIKcHIWm4fU

Banned from airing in Egypt

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1404719872189&oid=144158202276831&comments

Prisoners escaping jails

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CEi9u2oD6C4

 





The Best, the top and the must do: Screw Equality book review

9 01 2011
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\The January issue of Ladybird lifestyle magazine suggest that “Screw Equality” is a must read!!!

Woohoo :)








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